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| He leads me beside the still waters |
One thing was that being uncertain of my readership, those who do not comment, I wanted to be careful what may be coming across as "teaching".
Another thing was that the more I read around the internet, the more I found material with which I disagreed. I try hard not to get embroiled in debates, especially on topics which might be considered straining a gnat. They will know we are Christians by the love we have for one another. I want to be able to fellowship and enjoy all who profess Christ. I did not want my blog to become a place where offences were caused and harsh words were exchanged. I think I've managed that. I do not know whether I am always true to my own heart on some things but if I can't find a something good to comment, then I don't comment at all (Thanks Mum!)
I have also experienced a long and difficult period in my life through which I am still wading. Although I am a battle weary warrior of nearly thirty years experience I have not coped so well with some of the trials which have beset us.
Some one very close and influential let me down badly :- ( How childish and immature I have been about this. I've had lots of disappointments in my life and they have served to show me more clearly that the only faithful and dependable one is God. Man, male and female, will always disappoint, as we ourselves do. I put too much store by what this person said and have felt crushed in the fall out. I feel too drained emotionally and spiritually to share very much here.
The old saying "When mumma ain't happy, ain't nobody happy" comes to mind. Have I dropped my bundle to the detriment of my family, my husband, my friends? They would say no, but deep down I know that I have not behaved and lead by example as I might have done in the past.
Time is healing this wound. God is gently showing me my failings. I do not want to loose that ability to reach out and love and trust people, but deep hurt takes a good deal of time to resolve. All of us here have been affected and I especially grieve for my teenage boys who have seen some unpleasantness between adults who profess the Lord. I remember this happening when my girls were in their early teens too and it grieves all the more as I know it to be a factor in their walking away from the Lord. All of my children are covenanted to be the Lord's and I trust that in His time they will search for and trust in Him.
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- God, give me grace to accept with serenity
- the things that cannot be changed,
- Courage to change the things
- which should be changed,
- and the Wisdom to distinguish
- the one from the other.
Reinhold Neibuhr
Our lives become very shallow and meaningless if we turn back from what we know is the straight path. Here in this place a little faithful group of believers meets together in the manner which we believe is honouring to our great God. It is simple but deep. We hold his Word to be precious and his Saints to be dear. As my family and I move forward, we struggle with the changes that have come about in our lives. Hubby and I find it difficult to keep the Lord's Day in the way we used to and sometimes our family worship times are greatly interrupted. Personal time too. I confess, I am often distracted by all the busy-ness of small children, school and family that old routines seem to have gone by. Have I become shallow? We do not want our lives to become just so, so. We long to display our love and loyalty to our Lord and Savior.
The Lord is on my side
I will not fear.
Not Sabbath Thoughts but the random thoughts of a tired heart ♥






























